The other day I was bummed out and felt sort of like a failure. “I’m not doing enough,” I thought.
The dirty secret of success is that highly productive people are often driven by self-doubt and self-loathing. But because this is America, you must always act like a shiny-happy person or people will annoy you with, “What’s wrong” types of questions. Nothing is wrong, even though I doubt myself every night, and succeed despite the doubts.
I mapped out my year and realized time dilation had deceived me.
It’s been one heck of a year, and here’s where it’s heading:
Speaking / social events
June 14th – Attending an event with Jesse Lee Peterson in Los Angeles. Tickets are here.
June 23rd – Mindset with Ed and Alex in New York. Tickets are here.
June 24th – TBD in Washington, D.C.
June 9th – Rough cut of Hoaxed is in my hands.
Fall, 2018 – Theatrical release.
(You can still back Hoaxed here.)
Mindset Master Class
August, 2018 – This is new material that you haven’t seen from me or anyone else.
We actually did a “live set” style event for the filming of the masterpiece, and people loved it and felt it was my best work yet. We go deep, we go vulnerable, we go to the next level.
My book about everything you need to win at life will be out once Hoaxed has been released.
I am going to withdraw from public life to consider the next Act in my life.
I never intended to get into politics. It was an accident, and then it became a challenge. 60 Minutes, Susan Rice, a bunch of scoops, and then John Conyers. That was a highlight reel year for any journalist.
A member of Congress resigned because of me, and Chuck Todd asked the National Security Adviser about me on Meet the Press. That’s not little league.
The DeploraBall, Bull Moose Party, and a Night for Freedom NYC and DC were major events to put on for anyone, let alone a gorilla guy.
It’s really sort of mind blowing. People went to jail for planning an acid attack on the DeploraBall.
A Night for Freedom New York was described a ridiculous (I’ll take that in a good way) political event. A thug also planned an attack, and he’s going to prison for 3 to 10 years.
How did I go from a guy living the nomadic, location-independent lifestyle, to some media/political/public figure?
The past 1, 2, or 3 years…I don’t even know how much time has passed.
I was living with my wife in Paris in July, 2015, when the Energy told me some guy with big hair would become President. I had no interest in politics, and starting telling people why Donald J. Trump would be the next President of the United States. The hate and attacks came, and for me haters are fun. I fought back and then got sucked into the event horizon with the rest of you.
My wife and I were living the dream. Gorilla Mindset had sold way better than I thought. We had total freedom and “book money.” What did we get ourselves in, or rather what did I get her in?
I started goofing off online, and it was always fun for me. Some guy said he was from the New Yorker and wanted to study new media. I figured it was a troll but threw together a happy hour. He seemed shocked by how many people showed up, and it ended up as a full profile.
When the profile – which was highly critical but not unfair – hit, there was a massive hate storm. Everyone who pretended not to know who I was showed their cards. They all knew. And they kept saying the profile “owned” me, whatever that means.
Then Trump won.
And 60 Minutes called, and I did the impossible. No one goes on 60 Minutes and wins. Everyone was hyped to watch me get destroyed. Fifteen million people watched that episode of me.
Not everyone knows my background. I was some fat kid growing up in a poor town. When I got sophisticated, I’d read articles like the Atlantic and New Yorker. Then I end up in them. It’s a surreal experience reading about yourself. Or watching yourself on television.
And it’s also not me.
Ask any journalist for a press release from me. They don’t exist, and I ignore most media inquiries. It’s nothing personal. Being in this game wasn’t my goal.
Probably the reason I did what no one else could was because of my risk profile. I played like I had nothing to to lose. A hit piece will remove me from public life? Nope, and even if one did, I wouldn’t have lost anything.
I never sought out to get famous or be legitimate. For me this was all a huge joke. When people ask about some jokes I’ve told in poor taste, it never occurs to them that of course I didn’t want to get into politics. I said whatever would shock people, because why not?
Also, because of how I am plugged into the Simulation, hate shows up as geometric figures. I don’t interpret it emotionally or “feel” hate when people scream and attack me. They are shapes I move around and reinterpret into love, because people complain 10 times more often than they offer gratitude.
Hate washes over my body like snow flakes in a cool winter storm.
Where “here” is, I don’t know. And I’m going to need some time to reflect.
With a young daughter in my life, and another little one is planned, it feels time to move onto something else.
I don’t know.
Maybe I’ll write poetry, or begin working on a great novel.
Maybe I’ll do crisis PR and teach people the new ways.
Writing at Cernovich.com has been enjoyable for me, and being on Twitter feels like a job.
Rebuilding the community and network is rewarding.
My read of the Energy says its time to leave, sometime in October.
I’ve seen a vision of a Curtain closing. What will open up? We will see.
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CNN’s Brian Stelter Apologizes for Mistake (Good Man)
Update: Brian Stelter has apologized.
This was a full and unequivocal apology, and all of us should applaud it and remember it when our time to own up to mistakes arises.
(Because that day is coming for all of us, sooner or later.) pic.twitter.com/QWtBLDsK4s
— Essential Cernovich (@Cernovich) June 1, 2020
CNN’s Brian Stelter falsely accused a woman of spreading disinformation tonight, in a Tweet Stelte deleted without apology after it was revealed that Stelter lying.
The lie concerned a fire started by rioters in Washington D.C. Katrina B. Haydon reported that St. John’s church near the White House was on fire.
Box Alarm 1525 H St NW. #DCsBravest had fire in basement of church. Fire extinguishing. Checking for extension.
— DC Fire and EMS #StayHomeDC Lite (@dcfireems) June 1, 2020
NEW: Fire was in basement of St. Johns, and is out, my @washingtonpost colleague @phscoop reports from DC fire department. Firefighters got there w/ a police escort and quickly put out the blaze. Did NOT appear to cause any significant damage, and it is unclear how it started.
— Michelle Boorstein (@mboorstein) June 1, 2020
Stelter attacked the woman, baselessly accusing her of lying.
Brian Stelter has yet to apologize to spreading disinformation.
Shannon Bream and live video feed on Fox
— Katrina B Haydon (@katrinabhaydon) June 1, 2020
He called you a liar and then deleted it. Amazing.
— Jarvis (@jarvis_best) June 1, 2020
— Derek Hunter (@derekahunter) June 1, 2020
Accuses me of either lying or being too dumb to communicate what I’m seeing on live TV, then deletes it pic.twitter.com/A8tCQ5JOdT
— Katrina B Haydon (@katrinabhaydon) June 1, 2020
Did Brian Stelter lie to protect violent protesters?
Why did Stelter lie?
Is he trying to provide propaganda for violent protesters and domestic terrorists?
— Charlie Spiering (@charliespiering) June 1, 2020
“Burn It Down,” ESPN Writer Encourages Arson of Low Income Housing
ESPN sportswriter Chris Palmer Martin Tweeted, “Burn that shit down. Burn it all down.” The burning building was a low-income housing area in Minneapolis. (Minneapolis vandalism targets include 189-unit affordable housing development.)
When rioters neared Martin’s home, he called them “animals.”
— Jack Posobiec (@JackPosobiec) May 31, 2020
The media has a history of supporting ANTIFA.
CNN in 2017: Antifa opposes hate and seek peace through violence
— Scooter Downey (@TrueLegendFilms) May 30, 2020
Media bro’s went from ANTIFA is good to ANTIFA doesn’t exist https://t.co/XWormC5xNE
— Essential Cernovich (@Cernovich) May 31, 2020
Hoaxed Movie Uncovers the Media’s Relationship with ANTIFA
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Trump Channels CNN in Joe Scarborough “Cold Case”
“It’s possible, but I don’t know.” With those words former FBI Director James Comey set a new standard for media coverage of public figures. Even when there is no evidence to substantiate your claim, even when you’re relying on a document that had been discredited within the FBI, even when you’re quoting work product that was the result of Russian disinformation, you give no quarter to your enemies.
I am referencing the infamous pee-pee interview James Comey gave to ABC. Comey’s words were amplified by every media outlet. No context was added (such as the FBI’s knowing the Steele dossier was funded by Democrats and contained hoaxes from Russian pranksters).
"I honestly never thought these words would come out of my mouth, but I don’t know whether a current host of a major MSNBC show killed a staffer. It’s possible, but I don’t know."
How is that *any* different from this stuff CNN and media did for 3 years? https://t.co/UtFxbLDx8P
— Essential Cernovich (@Cernovich) May 27, 2020
And now Trump is applying these same principles to Joe Scarborough.
Media figures cry foul. What moral authority do they have?
Scarborough’s own colleague Rachel Maddow accuses people of being Russian assets. When called to answer those allegations in court, she claims that her assertions, believed to be statements of fact by her millions of viewers, are “quintessential statements of rhetorical hyperbole, incapable of being proved true or false.”
As much as I’m glad to see Joe Scarborough be treated with the same “journalistic ethics” as he treats others, I feel for the Lori Klausutis family, who no doubt do not want these painful memories resurfaced. Scarborough deserves this, but the Klausutis family does not.
But as always the media is treating itself as the real victim here.
The same media figures who recklessly smeared innocent teenagers from Covington High School as racists have much to say about a need for others to measure their words.
The same media figures who obsess over every mean Tweet a conservative posts ignores Scarborough’s on-air recording joking about the tragic death of a staffer.
Feel some empathy for the Klausutis. They are caught in a battle they didn’t start.
Scarborough, however, is getting exactly what he and everyone else on cable news deserves.
Whoa! Did Joe Scarborough really say this? https://t.co/jXz58vz3zn
— Essential Cernovich (@Cernovich) May 27, 2020